Meaning Of Life....

Halo, well it's been awhile since my last post, a week i think. Blogging is hard nowadays, since time was not there for me to use. Well, this week has been a week of discovery and reflection towards what my life stands for. I always think, what was it we live for, because i cannot imagine how wonderful life is, but still there are no guarantee target to what this life is for. I experience a lot from people around me to know, there are more than meets the eye for us here on earth.

So, to get started, let us ask ourselves, why do we exist in earth. The tree exists to give oxygen to the earth, the ocean provides habitat for marine animals, the sky, the land, they all have a reason to exist. Why human exist?? This is not a religion question, just it always make me wonder, does we have any reason to be created by God.

As we know, humans are the most perfect beings in God's creation. We were given a thinking mind to think, and act as we want. Why? I can't answer that. But one thing is for sure, we must be thankful that God decided to create us, eventhough we were not as perfect as god wanted. The world we living now is rotting, as a result of human action itself. Human minds are limitless, there are many good people, and many bad people.

Living makes me wonder what that word really means to us. What is our aim in the short period for us in this world. Always we heard we live for a reason. One wonderful thing we were given by God is the ability to socialize. We live in a society, where every person were born in a family. First with our parents, then until the time where we in our own family.

I have a family, like you and me, but sometimes i don't know what it meant to me. I don't miss my home, and it's not normal. But somehow i realize what i did is wrong, why i have become such a person. I should not let guilty takes over. Why? Why? I really can't answer my own question. I'm guilty to my family, you don't deserve this from me.

Next thing in my mind, why do we need to have relationship. I guess that's when our socialize part of human being kicks in. It's very wonderful to think how one human can be attracted to another. People falls in love, people get together, people just live forever. Wow, how wonderful that is. Well, if all goes well, that is. But sometime, things don't go your way. There are obstacles, challenges, and even constraint we can't avoid confronting with. I heard this expression where there are someone out there for us. Is this true, i hope so. But to think there are someone meant for you there, it's like trying to find a needle in a haystack. Best for us is just wait one appears. How long will it be? How long should we wait? Nobody knows for sure. I wonder this a lot, but all i did is breaking hearts along the way. Yet i still desire, but i don't want to break another soul. It's a sin that will haunt me.

So, there are a lot of uncertainty in my part especially. What do i really want with my life. Do i have a reason now? Then what? It's a mystery of life that only time can answer. We live in a highway that leads to a lot of roads, choices in life. Get in the wrong lane, your lost. Best if you find guidance. Guide you to the right lane, you will never be lost again. Make sure we are well prepared for the trip. Fill in your gas tanks. Set your goal, then you will get to where you want.

I'm writing this because i had lost the meaning of being me. I don't know what my life should be. How should i shape it? It won't be soon before later, so i really don't have time on my side. I made a lot of mistakes, to family, to friends, to people that cared for me. Why? Why i need to be like this. I don't know anymore. Let it be? No way. I felt something that i should not felt, it's a mistake i regreted. No more.......




-dlanor mrota-

The Ultimate Test Is Test Itself....

It's summer time in ump, the sunshine is back, and the weather is hot. Damn, this is madness. Well, it's test week in ump, and a havoc week it was. Just a night before ElecTech test, i had fever. Wow, i really tought i'm gonna fail that subject. When i study, nothing came in, nothing came out. So i went for the test, i had a hard time. I made mistakes, i admit, but i won't blame my fever, it's just that i'm very lazy to study. Haih...

Next, i'm having thermodynamics. Gradually fever went down, but i had another dilemma. I got movie maker to do!!! Another damn moment... Well, still, i should do the movie maker earlier, so i have not enough time studying it. Well, in the end, i took my thermo test, it was quite ok, but i almost had no enough time answering it.

So, moral of the story, never waste time. Always find time to study, at least a chapter or two. Take care of your health, getting sick during test really sucks. And yes, have enough sleep. You will feel better going to test. Anyway, that's all from me, i want to think what else i want to post next. Chiak...

During Thermodynamics Test...


-dlanor-

(Happy Valentine's Day 2009)

Dearest....

February has arrived and it still feels like yesterday i was here. What made me survived this long. Finally i realize i had to thank my roomates to make this place such a home. I still remember the first times i saw them, i don't know what to expect from them. Whether i'm going to upset them, or make them hate me. So far, we have been so close to each other, and thank god from them. I would like to take this chance to introduce my roommates to the world. This is the story of Nelton Koo, Steven Tay, and Lee How Cheh. The first guy i notice when i entered my room is this guy:-

His name is Nelton, hail from Melaka. Whats so special about this guy? Well he's jokes makes always catches me. Sometime he can joke out of nowhere. Even i cannot beat him in that. He's quite charming, but he have a lot of problem in expressing his feelings to the girl he like. Takut kena reject katanya. Well, one advice bro, just go for it. You never know what you get, not until you make the move. Don't wait until evrything is too late. Don't hide your feelings too long, you'll hurt yourself. Anyway, he is in FKPPT, i think it stands for Fakulti Kejuruteraan Pembuatan Dan Pengurusan Teknologi. He helped me alot, in terms of studies and non-studies moment. Next up is this guy:-

This guys' name is Lee How Cheh. He Hails from Kuala Lumpur, but don't know which area of KL. He has this good boy image in our room. 24 hours study in room, never go outing, i guess everything he did he do it all in this room. I think he only goes out either for jogging or makan. He's the most handsome (i think so lah...) among us, but still single. Bila tanya why didn't tackle girl, katanya don't want lah, tak ada calon lah. Guess he don't have nafsu yet. Anyway, he helped me a lot in electrical subject. With the efforts he has given in his studies, i'm very sure he can get 4 flat. Nothing is impossible bro. One interesting fact about him, he loves to watch drama, especially chinese drama. So whoever want to share drama with him, can ask for his number or skype from me k. I believe one day, if he finally found the girl that suits him, he'll be a very romantic person. That's my opinion. Oh ya, he is studying in Fakulti Kejuruteraan Elektrik Dan Elektronik. Single and available? Maybe... Next up, is this guy:-

This is Steven Tay, the computer expert in this room. Any program you want to download, you want to format laptop, you want print, come and find him. He can solve for you. He is studying in Fakulti Sains Komputer Dan Kejuruteraan Perisian, computer nerd lah ni. He likes to play mid-challenging games, which he is an expert in. And he loves anime, especially dragonball and yu-gi-oh (like me lah). He is very helpful but sometimes agak kelam-kabut. And i don't like to see him get used by others. So bro, you watch out yourself k. He say he always stress, and keep on mengigau at night. Even when i'm writting this post, he mengigau. He say something in chinese that i cannot comprehend. Anyway, he is a good guy, hard working and love to help others. So, these are my roomates. What do you think, i think we have a very good relationship, we share things with each other, we understands each other, what else more can i ask for. God had blessed me with them, and i'm glad for ot. I hope your roomate also close to you. They surely help make us feel less miss home, especially when you are form overseas. Anyway, want to share few good moments we shared throughout the 1st sem.

Muka nelton blurr ambik gambar...

Testing my camera with nelton...

...With How Cheh...

1st day of RAKSI...

....Steven And Nelton....

Pose maut nak kena cium....

Steven: Ngantuk, macam saya...

Bakal model playboy pertama Malaysia....

Eeeeewwww... Comelnya.....

Me and Nelton went outing...

Well, that's all for me to share with you about my roomates. They are nice people, god bless them always. It's time for my psp so i guess i'll leave it until here. Until next posting, agi idup agi ngelaban. Bye bye.

Friends Forever.... -Dlanor Mrota- -4 February, 2009-